When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, ‘I used everything you gave me’. Erma Bombeck
I am writing this to you from 30,000 feet up in the sky. I just took flight on my longest and biggest teaching adventure / tour to date!! For the next 3 months I will be traveling throughout Indonesia (Bandung, Jakarta, and Bali) and Thailand teaching 3 different Teacher Training Programs, Special events, Headlining a festival and leading a retreat. It’s absolutely insane, magical and a li’l scary that this has become my life.
Almost 2 years ago to the day, I was at the top on the Annapurna base camp hours before the worse catastrophe to this day hit the mountain. I was with my dear friend and teacher Laura Amazzones and before we left to make the climb down we visited the Annapurna alter. We left offerings and prayed. Trembling I prayed to the goddess asking for her help, assistance, and guidance. Help in taking away my pain and deep wounds in my heart; assistance in the form of courage to not only get us down the mountain safety but to also confront all own inner demons, untruths, and fears that live deep inside me; and lastly the guidance to truly access the gifts that have been bestowed upon me, see them, share them, and be of service to the world.
Days later and filled with overflowing gratitude for safely making in down the mountain (RIP the beautiful souls who did not) for the first time potentially ever I felt the fragility of this life. I began to get angry and began writing ferociously in my journal as I often do… “I am not going to waste this life, this breath, this moment any longer. I am sick and tired of the self criticism, self hatred, of playing it safe, of making my me small, and doubting who I am. I am tired of wishing I was some thing else – smarter, younger, prettier, richer or had skinnier legs. It was those very legs that got you up and done that Mountain Cristi, own them! This life, this body, this face of yours is a precious precious gift… remember what Annapurna told you.. You are the goddess. You are the goddess. You are the goddess”
I share this with all of you not to show how messed I might be 😉 but to show you that i am human- Raw, real and vulnerable. And to share with you the next intention I wrote.
“I want to bring yoga to every corner of the world and teach people that yoga is way more then a physical practice but is a way of being and has the ability to empower, heal, liberate and transform ones life in every way possible. I want to help people connect to their bodies, get strong, connected and to live a life of purpose filled with peace, love, and smiles! I want to give back to the world exactly what yoga has given me and continues to give me. That is what I want to do!”
Two years later that is exactly what I am doing, I can hardly believe it. When I wrote those words I had no idea of the how but I didn’t need to. It was the quality and power of the intention. The right people just appeared, my angels as I call them, who saw me, pushed me, gave me opportunities to put my intention into action and step by step the vision is becoming real. This trip is definitely another milestone on my path and when that first moment of self doubt, self hatred, or inner critic shows up I’ll remember the words that Annapurna spoke to me… I AM THE GODDESS!
I am here to remind you that you are the goddess/ God yourself. I want to inspire you to make pure intentions and take actions so you too can live your most is inspired fulfilled life and be sure as hell to use every bit of talent that god/goddess gave you!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a part of my path, my journey and for touching my life. I have many excited things coming through the pipeline that I will soon be able to share with you, so please stayed tuned !!
Peace, love, & smiles,